When I was in the 10th grade I had a crush on a guy. He was a popular basketball player while I was a hellion running to my own drum and in a very abusive relationship. I kept my feelings quiet until one day I voiced my crush to a friend and I remember saying, " One day I am going to be with him" My friend said no way!"

Sometime during my senior year I was invited to a party by a girl whom had been dating the same guy whom I had, had a crush on. Well during the party I was on the couch and who came up and sat beside me? It was the guy! We talked & talked, had a great time. He took me home and after that we started to date.

I was trying to keep things quiet because of the X abusive boyfriend who was not with me but yet not wanting me to date anyone else. I fell really hard for this guy and one day the word got out that we were dating. Well, after getting picked up by the throat and slammed against a wall and being told, " your mine and I will kill you if you leave me" I later on gave in due to my own fear and insecurities and so me & my crush went our separate ways.

My parents moved me a few times to different states to get me away from this jerk but I eventually came back to Ohio, the jerk joined the navy and finally left me for good. what a blessing!

I eventually dated a guy for almost 8 years, married him and had a son. We had a very rocky relationship, we didn’t get along very well for most of the time, he worked a lot and was never home so it was like we lived our own separate lives. Before we got married I did catch him with another woman whom I beat the crap out of. I should have dumped him and kept going but I did not. I foolishly married him. One year after I gave birth to my son he left me for another woman. Our marriage lasted 3 years.

I went through a tough time after that and raising my son alone was tough as well. I was depressed and was put on antidepressants, had to go on welfare to support my son because he left me with nothing and I could not get any child support from him until the divorce was final. I was suicidal and the medications only made it worse. I am going to leave some things out because its way to painful to talk about but again it was one of the worst times in my life.

After a few months I decided to go to my moms, dropped off my son and just drove. I ended up a a chapel. I don’t know why but while I was there I did something I rarely ever did and that was pray. I prayed that one day God would bring me someone who would love me for myself, love my son, be there for me, someone who I could share my life with, someone whom I could really love and who could love me back and would also like what I liked, someone who was handy and liked to work with his hands, someone caring, etc..the list goes on.

I left and didn’t think about it after that. A few months went by when one day I got a newspaper at my door. I was kind of happy because I enjoyed the newspaper and my soon to be X had cancelled it when he had moved out many months before. I took it into the dining room, opened it up to the divorce section because hey I was getting divorced and wanted to see who else was in the same boat I was in. I had never read the section before in my life.

When I looked down it was like the name literally jumped off the page, it was like someone was trying to say hey look at me! Lo and behold I could not believe it...It was my high school crush! I could not believe my eyes! For 3 days I kept looking at it and thinking about him. So I decided to get his number and call him. It took a lot of begging to get that phone number from his mom let me tell you. I called, left a message and waited. He called me and from that point on we talked on the phone every night about our problems, we talked almost all night many nights. It took me awhile before I agreed to say ok lets meet again.

When i walked into his house and saw him I felt as something touched my soul. I had never felt that way before. We have been married for 12 years now, our 13 year anniversary will be next month.

That newspaper that came to me was the only one I ever received in the 6 months I lived in that house. Yes I do believe we are soul mates, he was everything I asked for down to the doing something handy with hands because he’s a carpenter. He is the love of my life!

____by Kimberly Barnes

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