when I was 15 years old I saw a boy in the car next to me - dragging our local town strip - our eyes met and it was like being struck by lightening.We were never apart.After my parents divorced I was forced to leave our city and move 2 states away with my Mother. He followed & got a job there.One night we argued,we had a stormy relationship always,he was arrested and forced to leave the state.I didn't know I was pregnant at the time.I had the baby and eventually returned to our hometown.We could never leave each other alone & strangely enough,our relationship never seemed to have much to do our child,it was always just something between us. We could never seem to be on the same path,despite,love,attraction,admiration and devotion to each other.He was never going to be able to live a conventional life.At 23 I married an older stable man and he adopted the child I had with my boyfriend. We lived a happy rather uneventful pleasant life until a phone call came a year ago. My long ago boyfriend was dying and he had no one. He needed to see me and wanted to see our child. It was like being struck with love all over again,we went through his illness together and he died 10 months later.It was as if I had first met his eyes 33 years earlier because someday he was going to need me.Our love at the end of his life continued as if we had never parted. Even though I had and have a wonderful husband,our love was separate and like nothing I ever could imagine experiencing. After he died I felt so lost and heartbroken,on a whim, I scheduled a meeting with a medium. He had always promised me throughout his illness that he would always be around me and would find a way to show me.I had no doubt. He often said we were soulmates,our love and understanding after all of those years apart was too deep. I felt just a little foolish but met with the medium. She immediately connected with him.The 1st thing she saw from him were birds and falling bird feathers.When asking if this meant anything to me - it was the song Free Bird which had meant exactly to me what was going to happen at his death.She proceeded to tell me 30 accurate details of our life on earth together. He told her he would be waiting for me,that we had been together in a past life,this lifetime had been for working things out and that we would live together again in another life. Even though that goes against my tradional religious beliefs,I don't know yet how or if I question what he said. We were so different,we lived such different lives, no one would have ever thought of us at the end of his life as being devoted lovers,but honestly,it was as if we were exactly the same, 2 halves of the same soul almost, we were one and I couldn't express the meaning of the experiences we shared after all of those years,it was as if it were hours,not 26 years apart. It was an amazing experience, yet the heartbreak was worth the pain of finding and losing him again. I know I will be with him again. Devotion,unconditional love,complete understanding of anothers being and acceptance and understanding of their weaknesses, that was us,we never quit loving each other. I am still just blown away - I almost question that he has come and gone from me again...but I know he is out there and here with me - more than a love story, I believe that we were part of the meaning of soulmates, something deep in the universe - as dramatic as that probably sounds, I loved him so much, I always told him, I love you,I love you,I love you, once was never enough
--loved deeply with beauty by him